sudden leakage of heart..

Never understood the height of brutality,
associated with the world I'm living...
I sacrificed my life...

If not "I" , then WHO??

Everyone's here trying to understand me..

what I'm pretending continuously..

but meanwhile pretended a bit too...

considering them as buff..

of course I'm mistaken...

but I don't care whatever's gonna be...

feeling me Like I'm over the crown..

I know I'm right ... 

Then what's wrong bothering me??

If a simple desire can pull their stochasticity down..

Then there's nothing wrong in pushing up,

to favour the harmony in between..

Mixed Values...

I don't know whence I came..
don't even know where I'm going.

but believe me I'm living the present.
whatever they said , I don't care..
they're calling me a name..
whether it's my actual or not..
but still a name..
I don't know whence I came..
don't even know where I'm going..

They tried to make sense of whatever not actually meant for..
And made our mind their way..
but neither I'm thinking of hell nor heaven..
coz I haven't observed those boundaries yet, they're talking about.
I don't know whence I came..
don't even know where I'm going..

love's what I experienced throughout..
some says it a game,
while others, just a name..
but whatever It is, I'm living..
and decided to live forever..
I don't know whence I came..
don't even know where I'm going...

Imagine , Mean the value..

Imagine the whole space,
filled with water..
matter contains its certain concentration..
Imagine that liquid,
imbuing into the matter..
that weakening contact,
among its particles...
portion within the solubility domain dissolving...
temperature going down..
gravity weakening..
all the physical forces wanting..
particles seperating away..
Imagine that infinitesimal particles, matter equivalent,
continously diffusing over infinite universe..
light dissolving into the darkness..
sound dissolving into the silence...
now, realise the concentration..
same concentration as before...
space, is still there, unaffected..
same as before..
feel our existence..
lost..
feel the time ticking over..
whatever destroyed could have been saved by time..
you may blame it..
but It won't stop ticking...
.....
...

As I started, Life started...

From the point I started gathering morals..
People started accepting me, as the piece of their success...
But somewhere, my courage started dominating over their greed..
That's how the value started rising over my own mind..
My journey then started summing up my original success...
But I can't forget the day,
when something happened actually don't even I know..
I started moving out,
Off my path of success...
And started favouring my heart...
Hence, my mind started asking to define attachment...
When my mind recited that question again,
I composed the post,
Dedicated to all those really deserve my gratitude...

Luck, The Probability...

What do you think about?? ....
Do you believe in luck??
Try to view over whatever I'm trying to present..
Believing in luck like believing in probability, isn't it??
But as per I mean, "probability is nothing just the reality, usually we ignore"
Let's think about a coin we gonna toss..,
What's the probability of getting head??
"1/2"... isn't it???
But actually when we toss we impart certain impulse, turns into certain velocity and certain angular velocity. Then it rises to certain height and turns continuously.
And finally result comes out...
It's not the probability. It's the direct consequence of our initiation..
And result will change according to the magnitude of impulse we apply in the beginning.. 
Similarly luck is whatever came in reality but still out of our logic.. :)  

External efforts..

As I started favouring the journey,
as per the life demands,
my path itself started shrinking.
It’s like showing a particular pattern over trends.
As I speed up,.
also speed up the way it’s shrinking.
One moving slowly will stay longer..
But It’s all about whatever doesn’t matter.
Nature is actually impeding,
against my affinity towards mistakes.
Somewhere the god inside me wants,
effort he's favouring to centralize to my efforts..

Book having post face...

The way I back off today,
is appreciable of course.
something happened negative side,
but that's what I actually deserve..
somehow my brain drained off my innocent heart...
but I respect evrything happens to my life,
whatever it is,
enough to extract the moral out of it..
what I drained always expected within limits,
neither I notice the other side,
nor what he mean,
nor what I meant for..
and of course it's my fault,
that's what I accept..
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.still waiting to exclaim "yikes!"...